IT ALL STARTED WHEN ME AND GOYAL, MADE A WEBSITE FOR FUN, IT WAS CALLED WWW.BVP3G.COM, IT WAS JUST ANOTHER SOCIAL NETWORKING SITE, A NOT SO SUCCESSFUL BUT STILL IT WAS OUR FIRST WEBSITE TOGETHER. WELL THAT WEBSITE WASNT A HIT BUT STILL WE PEOPLE STARTED KNOWING THAT THIS GUY GOYAL MAKES WEBSITES. ONE DAY HE GOT A CALL FROM ONE OF OUR MBA SENIOR, MITESH. MITESH WAS AMONG THE CULTURAL COMMITTEE MEMBERS OF HIS CLASS. HE ASKED GOYAL TO MAKE A WEBSITE FOR SHIKHAR THEIR FEST, GOYAL AGREED. SINCE I WASN'T IN MUMBAI, SO I COULDN'T HELP HIM. LATER WHEN I CAM BACK, HE TOLD ME ABOUT ANOTHER PROJECT, ABOUT A SLIDESHOW PRESENTATION FOR THE PURPOSE OF PROMOTION OF SHIKHAR AT THEIR ANNUAL MBA ALUMNI MEET.I GOT A CHANCE TO SHOW MY TALENT IN VIDEO MAKING THERE, ME AND NIKHIL KALA ONE OF MY BATCH MATE DECIDED TO SHOOT AND MAKE A VIDEO FOR THIS PURPOSE AS WE BOTH WERE INTERESTED IN THAT.
WE WENT TO COLLEGE AND TOLD CULTURAL COMMITTEE HEAD MISHI MAM, AND TOLD HER THAT WE WANTED TO MAKE A VIDEO, AND SHE AGREED. ME, NIKHIL, GOYAL AND MITESH, ALL FOUR OF US STARTED WORKING ON CONCEPT DEVELOPMENT FOR THE VIDEO. AS THE THEME WAS 'GO GREEN' SO WE DECIDED TO MAKE A VIDEO ON THAT ONLY. NIKHIL CAME UP WITH A A WONDERFUL IDEA ABOUT A MAN STRUGGLING FOR HIS LIFE AND GROWS A PLANT. WE STARTED WORKING ON THAT. WE HAD A HANDY CAM, AND MY SOFTWARES AND JUST 4 OF US AS RESOURCES. WE NEEDED SOMEONE WHO CAN ACTUALLY ACT. THEN CAME KUNAL, WHO VOLUNTEERED FOR VIDEO, AND HE DID A GREAT JOB. WITH HELP OF AN UNCLE WORKING IN OUR COLLEGE GROUND, AND MISHI MAM'S SON WE COMPLETED OUR FIRST DAY SHOOT.
I WOKE FOR WHOLE NIGHT EDITING THE VIDEO, I HAD TO CUT EVERY SCENE, EVERY ERROR, AND JOIN THEM IN PERFECT SEQUENCE, ADD MUSIC, AND ADD EFFECTS. EARLY MORNING WE WENT TO KHARGHAR STATION PARKING FOR SOME SHOOT. AND WE WENT STRAIGHT TO OUR PLACE AND SLEPT. AFTER FEW HOURS OF SLEEP WE HAD TO GO FOR ANOTHER DAY'S SHOOT. FOR THAT WE NEEDED AROUND 100 BOYS OR GIRLS, BUT NO ONE WAS AVAILABLE. SO WE HAD TO CANCEL THAT SHOOT, WE WERE VERY DISAPPOINTED WITH THAT, WE WAITED WHOLE DAY FOR THAT, BUT IN THE END WE CAME UP WITH ANOTHER IDEA, AND WE SHOT WHOLE SCENE WITH PETROL, ROPES AND FIRE. AFTER MANY HOURS OF HARD WORK, FINALLY WE HAD DONE IT. THAT NIGHT WE DIDN'T SLEPT AT ALL AND I FINISHED WITH THE EDITING.
NEXT DAY, WE SHOWED IT SO MISHI MAM AND DIVYA MAM. DIVYA MAM HELPED US WITH THE FLAWS IN THE VIDEO, AND THEREFORE WE HAD TO EDIT THE TEXT USED IN THE VIDEO. DIVYA MAM HELPED US A LOT WITH THAT PROBLEM. BUT ONLY FEW HOURS WERE LEFT WITH US. I HAD TO FINISH WITH THE FINAL EDITING OF THE VIDEO. AND WITHIN HALF AN HOUR I DID IT. THEN WE RUSHED TOWARDS OUR FLATS, CHANGED CLOTHES, AS THE FUNCTION WAS ALREADY STARTED, AND WE HAD TO SHOW THE VIDEO THERE, WE RUSHED TOWARDS COLLEGE AGAIN.WE REACHED ON TIME AND AFTER SOME AMAZING DANCE PERFORMANCES, WE SHOWED OUR VIDEO.
THE LIGHTS WERE SWITCHED OFF, EVERYONE IN THE GROUND WAS LOOKING STRAIGHT AT THE SCREEN, WHERE OUR VIDEO WAS BEING PLAYED. I WASN'T NERVOUS AT ALL, BECAUSE I KNEW WE HAD DONE A GREAT JOB. BUT AS THE VIDEO STARTED, MY HEARTBEATS STARTED POUNDING FAST, I COULD FEEL THE ELECTRICITY IN THE AIR, AND SUDDENLY I REALIZED THAT MY HANDS WERE SHIVERING OF NERVOUSNESS. THE VIDEO WAS GREAT, NO DOUBT ABOUT THAT. EVERYONE FROM TEACHERS TO STUDENTS CONGRATULATED US FOR SUCH A GREAT VIDEO, AND APPRECIATED US FOR OUR WORK. WE WERE ON CLOUD NINE, IT WAS ONE OF THE BEST MOMENTS OF MY LIFE, I'LL ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT MOMENT. AFTER SOME SNACKS, WE WENT OUT TO CELEBRATE. ME, NIKHIL, MITESH AND GOYAL, ALL FOUR OF US CELEBRATED OUR SUCCESS AND WENT BACK TO OUR PLACE.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Thursday, January 07, 2010
RELEGION I UNDERSTAND, FEELINGS I FEEL
Homo-sapiens, commonly known as human beings are the strangest kind of living creatures. And what makes them different from all the other living creatures is that they can think and feel, and they think and feel a lot, but most of the times they think about and feel the things which they should not think or feel. Things which give them tensions make them worry or make them feel guilty. The biggest problem with human beings is that they are emotional, emotions are enemies of one’s will to exist, and sometimes they are strength to survive.
Most of the times human beings don’t want to do things that others want them to do, and when they do those things, others step back. They first will make you believe in something, and when you’ll start believing in that thing, they will stop believing in that. I am not a religious person, but I am spiritual in my own way, I like every place where I find peace, I may find peace in a church, or some Gurudwara, or any temple, or any mosque, or in my room, or some beautiful place, or on a lonely bus stand, or early morning at Kharghar station parking, any place where my soul gets peace is sacred to me.
“RELEGION CAN NEVER REFORM MANKIND
BECAUSE RELEGION IS SLAVERY”
-ROBERT G. INGERSOLL
1833-1899
It supports blind submission to the authority, it reduces human responsibility to the effect that GOD controls everything, and in turn all the awful crimes are justified in the name of Devine Pursuit, and most importantly it empowers those who know the truth to use the myth to manipulate and control the society. I believe in only one religion and that is HUMANITY. And I strongly believe that every human being should follow that because that is the only thing which makes us different from animals. I remember a song of one of my favorite rock band i.e. Nickel Back the song goes like-
If everyone cared nobody cried,
If everyone loved then nobody lied,
If everyone shared smaller the pride,
Then we see the day, when nobody died.
I love the song and strongly believe in the words. As far as I know, every religion teaches us the same thing, they teach us to maintain peace, they want us to follow the same path of righteousness, and as far as I know, every religion ends at heaven or hell, everyone doing good deeds will go to heaven and every sinner will go to hell. I do not know whether heaven or hell exist or not, but I believe that every crime you commit, you will be punished, either by law or by guilt. Therefore I believe in doing well to others and enjoying my life too, because if you are not enjoying every second of your life, you are living in a hell.
Never think about what you lost, think about what you gained. Think about what is ahead in life. Forgive and forget every person who has ever hurt you. Because he will suffer, for his sins and that’s sure. I just want to say that you should never feel sorry for what happened with you, but for what wrong you did, and try not to repeat the same mistake again. You cannot undo what has happened, but you can start now to change your future. If you are optimist, then only you can remain happy. Always remember, everything happens for a reason. And everything that happens to you will make your life better than before in some way or another. Every experience, good or bad leaves for us a lot to learn. And you will learn the most from your worst experiences in life. That’s why tragedies happen, to make us realize what wrong we did.
Feelings are important part of human beings, but the worst feeling any human can get is the feeling of guilt. Guilt is something that will not let you live in peace. So try not to hurt anyone, for anything, for any reason, even if you hate him the most on the face of earth. And if you are hurt by someone, I am telling you something, something very important, the MANTRA using which no one ever will be able to hurt you ever. And this MANTRA is- ‘NEVER EXPECT ANYTHING FROM OTHERS, TRY TO DO EVERYTHING ON YOUR OWN, BECAUSE WHEN THEY DO NOT FULFILL YOUR EXPECTATIONS, YOU GET HURT’. I never expect anything from anyone, I never expect anyone will do my work for me, I never expect that someone will love me either. Because when you get something unexpectedly you became the happiest person. You get something you needed, but you never asked for it, you just earned it, and the satisfaction of earning something is the best feeling any human being can ever get. And if someone refuses to do you a favor, you don’t get hurt, because you never had expectations from that person. I proposed to a girl and she refused, but still I was not hurt, because I never expected that she will love me back, all I wanted was her to know my feelings towards her. And if she would have said yes, I would have been on cloud 9, the happiest man alive. I have been a student of business administration, and we are taught to minimize our loss. And I try to minimize my loss in every aspect of life. And that’s the key to live happily, minimize hate, and maximize love and peace.
Most of the times human beings don’t want to do things that others want them to do, and when they do those things, others step back. They first will make you believe in something, and when you’ll start believing in that thing, they will stop believing in that. I am not a religious person, but I am spiritual in my own way, I like every place where I find peace, I may find peace in a church, or some Gurudwara, or any temple, or any mosque, or in my room, or some beautiful place, or on a lonely bus stand, or early morning at Kharghar station parking, any place where my soul gets peace is sacred to me.
“RELEGION CAN NEVER REFORM MANKIND
BECAUSE RELEGION IS SLAVERY”
-ROBERT G. INGERSOLL
1833-1899
It supports blind submission to the authority, it reduces human responsibility to the effect that GOD controls everything, and in turn all the awful crimes are justified in the name of Devine Pursuit, and most importantly it empowers those who know the truth to use the myth to manipulate and control the society. I believe in only one religion and that is HUMANITY. And I strongly believe that every human being should follow that because that is the only thing which makes us different from animals. I remember a song of one of my favorite rock band i.e. Nickel Back the song goes like-
If everyone cared nobody cried,
If everyone loved then nobody lied,
If everyone shared smaller the pride,
Then we see the day, when nobody died.
I love the song and strongly believe in the words. As far as I know, every religion teaches us the same thing, they teach us to maintain peace, they want us to follow the same path of righteousness, and as far as I know, every religion ends at heaven or hell, everyone doing good deeds will go to heaven and every sinner will go to hell. I do not know whether heaven or hell exist or not, but I believe that every crime you commit, you will be punished, either by law or by guilt. Therefore I believe in doing well to others and enjoying my life too, because if you are not enjoying every second of your life, you are living in a hell.
Never think about what you lost, think about what you gained. Think about what is ahead in life. Forgive and forget every person who has ever hurt you. Because he will suffer, for his sins and that’s sure. I just want to say that you should never feel sorry for what happened with you, but for what wrong you did, and try not to repeat the same mistake again. You cannot undo what has happened, but you can start now to change your future. If you are optimist, then only you can remain happy. Always remember, everything happens for a reason. And everything that happens to you will make your life better than before in some way or another. Every experience, good or bad leaves for us a lot to learn. And you will learn the most from your worst experiences in life. That’s why tragedies happen, to make us realize what wrong we did.
Feelings are important part of human beings, but the worst feeling any human can get is the feeling of guilt. Guilt is something that will not let you live in peace. So try not to hurt anyone, for anything, for any reason, even if you hate him the most on the face of earth. And if you are hurt by someone, I am telling you something, something very important, the MANTRA using which no one ever will be able to hurt you ever. And this MANTRA is- ‘NEVER EXPECT ANYTHING FROM OTHERS, TRY TO DO EVERYTHING ON YOUR OWN, BECAUSE WHEN THEY DO NOT FULFILL YOUR EXPECTATIONS, YOU GET HURT’. I never expect anything from anyone, I never expect anyone will do my work for me, I never expect that someone will love me either. Because when you get something unexpectedly you became the happiest person. You get something you needed, but you never asked for it, you just earned it, and the satisfaction of earning something is the best feeling any human being can ever get. And if someone refuses to do you a favor, you don’t get hurt, because you never had expectations from that person. I proposed to a girl and she refused, but still I was not hurt, because I never expected that she will love me back, all I wanted was her to know my feelings towards her. And if she would have said yes, I would have been on cloud 9, the happiest man alive. I have been a student of business administration, and we are taught to minimize our loss. And I try to minimize my loss in every aspect of life. And that’s the key to live happily, minimize hate, and maximize love and peace.
Friday, January 01, 2010
NEW YEAR RESOLUTION
DATE- 1ST JAN 2010
TIME- 12:01 AM
PLACE- MY ROOM
‘What am I supposed to do?’ this is the question which is in my mind right now. I am kind of confused. People outside are enjoying, and I am sitting alone in my room listening to Yanni.
I am not an emotional fool, but I am not a person who is not emotional at all. The problem is I am very poor at understanding and expressing the feelings. You will never know when I am really happy and when I am not. I am a great actor, in real life, you will never find me sad, and I just don’t want to be sad. Life is too fucking short, and I just don’t want to waste it spending time thinking about all the bad things happening to me. I like to live life. But sometimes I am numb, but it’s not numb, I should rather say ‘comfortably numb’ like the famous Pink Floyd song like I am feeling right now. I know I will spend whole night thinking about various things and will not sleep at all. People ask me to see a doctor, but I can’t remember even a single case where someone died of insomnia, so I know I’ll never see a doctor for this. Also I love the silence and darkness of night, I love listening to soothing music in the darkness of night.
Right now millions of people are enjoying, partying, because it’s New Year, but I wonder what is new in New Year?, it comes after every one year. I am not against celebrations, like any religious political party, I am libertarian I believe in freedom. But I don’t understand why people celebrate? Wear good clothes, eat good food, meet good friends, spend time with people you care about the most, if this is celebration, I celebrate my life every single fucking day. Apart from that I do a lot of things which people don’t do even when they are celebrating.
I am a happy man, I may not have a fancy car, I may not have enough resources, I may not have true love in life, at times I may not have fucking money, but I still am a happy man, because I have a dream to fulfill, I have to get myself a fancy car, I have someone whom I love, I have to be rich, earn respect for my work and myself.
I have already got around 5-6 text messages on my cell phone, all saying ‘happy new year’. Yeahh man I am happy. I am happy for myself that I am alive and I have seen the year 2010. Isn’t that enough for a normal human being to be happy? Why do people want others to be happy when they themselves are really not? Listen guys I have a disease, I am allergic to fucking bullshits, so don’t play games in front of me, because I know what is going on in your mind right now, and what you think about me, what you want from me. And if you think that you are getting work done by me by fooling me, remember one thing, I never do anything for free, until I really want to do something for someone. Remember, if I am doing any of your work for free, it means that either I like you and want to help you or I want something from you, I don’t believe in charity. I am a greedy and mean person, I have got enough brains to fool a normal man, and I am proud of that.
People don’t understand me, they don’t take me seriously. Last time when I had proposed to a girl, it took me 3 hours to make her believe that I was not joking. I am not a funny guy; I just say serious shit which people don’t understand, and they think that I was the one joking, but in reality they are the ones laughing at themselves. Next time you listen to a joke of mine, first analyze it properly, what it means, it can be something serious, it can be a comment, or it can be a normal joke also. No I am not a comedian, I am not even a funny guy, but I don’t want to hurt anyone, therefore I say things in that manner, and sometimes I am just afraid of the response.
Now it’s around 2:15 am, and now I know what I have to do. I am not going to crack jokes anymore. People think that I am just another funny guy, now I am going to tell them how motherfucking serious I can be. This is my New Year resolution. No more funny business, it’s time for some serious shit.
NO STARS IN THE SKY
PEOPLE SAY THEY HAVE FOUND EVERYTHING IN THIS BIG CITY, AND THEY MEAN EVERYTHING, MONEY, FAME, LOVE, EVERYTHING, IN THIS BIG CITY. THIS BIG CITY ATTRACTS MILLIONS OF EYES FILLED WITH AMBITIONS, WHO WANT TO MAKE IT BIG, WHO WANT TO DO SOMETHING GREAT, WHO WANT TO ACHIEVE SOMETHING BIG IN LIFE. BUT THERE IS ONE THING WHICH THEY WILL NOT FIND HERE IN BIG CITIES, THERE ARE NO STARS IN THIS BIG MUMBAI.
WHEN I WAS YOUNG I USED TO LIVE IN A SMALL TOWN, SOMEWHERE NEAR BANARAS, I USED TO PLAY WITH FRIENDS, HAD FUN, WAS GOOD IN STUDIES, USED TO SPEND QUALITY TIME WITH FAMILY. WE USED TO WATCH TV TOGETHER, AT THAT TIME THERE WAS NO CABLE CONNECTION SO WE USED TO WATCH FRIDAY NIGHT MOVIE, AND ON SUNDAY MORNING RANGOLI ON DD1. AS THEY SAY FAMILY THAT EATS TOGETHER STAYS TOGETHER, WE USED TO PREPARE SPECIAL MEAL ON SUNDAYS, AND USED TO GO OUT ON PICNICS. BUT THE BEST TIME OF THE DAY WAS WHEN ME MY FATHER AND MY YOUNGER BROTHER USED TO SLEEP ON THE ROOF WHOLE NIGHT WTCHING THE BLUE SKY TWINKLING ABOVE US. AND WE USED TO SPOT THE VARIOUS STARS AND CONSTELLATIONS. WELL THOSE WERE THE BEST DAYS OF MY LIFE.
ONE FINE DAY WE SHIFTED TO DELHI AND ALL THAT I HAD WAS LOST. THAT BIG CITY HAD EATEN UP ALL THE TIME WE HAD. I NEVER SAW THE SAME SKY AGAIN, SAME STARS AGAIN AND SAME MOON AGAIN. EVERYTHING WAS LOST IN THE BUSY LIFE, PEOPLE RUNNING OUT THERE FOR VARIOUS MATERIALISTIC THINGS. AT FIRST I LIKED THE NEW BIG CITY, I GOT NEW THINGS, CABLE TV WITH HUNDREDS OF CHANNELS, VIDEOGAMES, SHOPPING COMPLEXES, MALLS, MULTIPLEXES, AND ALL THOSE THINGS WHICH ARE BROUGHT UP ON THE NAME OF DEVELOPMENT. NOW AFTER 10 YEARS, I AM IN MUMBAI, THERE IS NOT MUCH DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THESE TWO CITIES, PEOPLE ARE BUSY HERE TOO, RUNNING AFTER MATERIALISTIC THINGS.
SOMETIMES I LOOK AT MYSELF STANDING IN A MIRROR, AND THINK ABOUT MY PAST AND PRESENT, AND I FIND THAT EVERYTHING HAS CHANGED. YESTERDAY I WENT OUT, IT WAS AROUND 2:30 MIDNIGHT AND LOOKE UP TO SKY, THERE WERE NO STARS THERE, ONLY DARK CLOUDS, JUST LIKE DEVIL LOOKING AT ME IN DISGUISE, SAYING 'EVERYTHING HAS CHANGED, AND THAT TIME WILL NEVER COME BACK'.
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