It has been a long time since I have written anything. Last blog was posted on in January. It is not that nothing has happened between this time gap, a lot has happened. Things have happened which have changed my life, my future, my lifestyle and my friends. Have seen a lot, lost a lot, gained a lot, learned a lot and suffered a lot in last few months. These last few months have just flipped the script of my life. The way it was supposed to be is no more the way it is now. My dreams are crushed, and still I got motivated, I got what I always wanted but was unable to get it.
Everyone knows that I was dying to get admission in symbiosys for mass com, I had got that, I had the admission letter in my hand, my dream had come true, I was the happiest man on the face of earth. But bhartividyapeeth did something unexpected, I suffered a lot because of it, I wasn’t allowed to give final semester exam. My dreams were crushed, that’s okay I’ll get admission next year too I know dat. But one year is wasted.
I had a fight with one of my best friend, she was the one I loved a lot and I lost her. She will never talk with me, and that too because we had a fight over something which was not even important. He had a fight, we exchanged bad words, won’t tell what really happened, or what was the reason, but in the end she said that it won’t be good for me if I’ll ever try to contact her again. Well I know I had done something really stupid that I shouldn’t have had done, but at that time I was angry so I did it, and I said that. And I am really sorry for what I’ve done. We were supposed to be BBF’s but I screwed up everything. I was hurt, and I was angry, so I lost my mind, and I am really sorry for that. That guilt was killing me from inside, and I was afraid to contact her directly as she had said that it won’t be good for me so I’ve chosen this blog to apologize. I hope you’ll forgive me for the sake of good old time we shared together and I’ll always be there to help you out whenever you’ll need me.
Well health also cheated me few days back. Whole July is wasted in bed-rest, medicines, and hospitals, around 40 injections in a week, and me getting weaker. I had to rush to Delhi just after doctor in Mumbai told me that the problem may need to be operated, and by next flight I was in Delhi. And till now m not perfectly cured of don’t know what. Even doctors don’t know what the problem was.
Well it isn’t like all the bad is happening with me in this world, good things also happened. I have got time to think about myself, what I really want and that has made my decision to go into this field even stronger. In this time I will prepare myself for future. Also one of my friend who is studying in SIMC asked me if I can assist him in a documentary he will be directing. The documentary is about the condition of children of pardhi tribe in Maharashtra, it’s a CRY(children rights and you) documentary. And I agreed, and now this is my first chance to work and learn and gain experience to work as an assistant director.
Well now m getting ready to have some paneer tikka, which my mom is making, and it’s raining outside. Also m getting well so soon after few days I will return to Mumbai, as I have to finish a lot of work there.
Don’t know when I’ll write next, but now days I am reading Anurag Kashyap’s blogs. And learning a lot from him.
